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Old 01-28-2012, 11:47 PM   #1
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This thread is to remember those precious babies we have lost.
With all the losses, we thought a thread to remember our angel babies would be a good idea.
Feel free to post anything you like about the loss of your little one(s).

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Old 01-28-2012, 11:48 PM   #2
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I will start,

Baby Perin lost on 9/10/10 @ 10.5 weeks. Baby found to have stopped growing at 7 wks....we saw the heartbeat at 6.5 wks. Forever in my heart!
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Old 01-29-2012, 10:12 AM   #3
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I never picked out names for my babies, but I lost my first angel in July of 2010 at 6 weeks and then lost my second angel in August of 2011 at 12 weeks. He or she had stopped growing at 11 weeks. I would have been due on February 22nd, and am dreading when that day arrives. I know I can get pregnant. It just takes me about a year for some reason. Hopefully when it does happen again, God will bless me with a healthy, problem-free pregnancy. I can only hope and pray at this point.
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Old 01-29-2012, 03:03 PM   #4
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I lost my LO at 5.5 weeks due to an ectopic pregnancy. I would have been due 7/18/12. One of the scariest and saddest moments in my life.
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Old 01-29-2012, 05:49 PM   #5
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I have had 16 losses. I will list a few but I do remember them all.

My first loss was June 28, 2000. I was 5.5 weeks pregnant and had been married just about 6 weeks. I found out just before I started miscarrying that I was pregnant and I already felt so attached. I thought it would be the hardest thing I would ever have to go through. I had no idea.

Between then and the end of 2004 when I found out I was pregnant with my oldest child I had 8 more losses, ranging between 5 and 9 weeks. Each one brought more despair and pain. I really felt like it was hopeless. I was in a really dark place over the Summer of 2004. I had 9 losses at that point.

In October 2004 I found out I was pregnant again. I was tested for and then treated for antiphosphlipid syndrome. My first child was born in June 2005, 3 weeks before her due date, because of preeclampsia that we had been holding off (along with preterm labor) since about 33 weeks.

I had a miscarriage in November of 2005. I was 7 weeks pregnant. I saw the heartbeat and then the baby was gone.

In 2006 I had a miscarriage in May at 10 weeks. Again, I had seen the heartbeat, everything looked great and then I started bleeding and the baby was gone. In August, at 13 weeks I lost another. Just a couple of days before, I saw a heartbeat on an ultrasound, the baby looked like a baby. I lost that baby at home. Other miscarriages that were past about 8 weeks, sometimes I was pretty sure I knew which clot was the baby. At 13 weeks it was different. I knew without at doubt that was my baby. They looked like a baby. It was beyond devastating. My heart was broken and I didn't think it would ever heal and it never completely has. Those two losses, one right after the other were physically and emotionally draining on me. I was angry too because the perinatologist kept saying I didn't need heparin. I didn't have a clotting disorder. I was devastated but also determined to find out why this was happening and what needed to be done.

I was pregnant again by the end of the year after taking a short break and doing a lot of research. I convinced the doctors to put me back on heparin. I was able to carry that baby to 33 weeks.
I had a loss in late 2007.

In 2008 I had 2 more losses they were early losses. I felt defeated though.
Maybe 2 children was enough. I didn't know if I could go through it again. I had been EXTREMELY blessed with the 2 children I had and 15 losses later, I wasn't sure I could do it anymore. I was happy with my two little girls but I still longed for another baby.

We were able to have another baby in 2009 at 31 weeks. We didn't know if he would make it. Right after he was born we lost him for a short time but they were able to revive him and he is doing well now.

In 2009 I had another early loss. It's sad that I expected it. I knew it would happen. It didn't make it any easier though.

That was my last loss. We were able to have one more child (he was also premature at 34 weeks). We are done now. I almost died from hemorrhaging with a couple of my miscarriages and also with two of of my babies births.

I hope that this is ok to put all of it here. I remember each loss as if they were just yesterday. It's been something that has changed me and had made me stronger in the long run.
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Old 01-29-2012, 11:40 PM   #6
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I had been 18 when I lost my first baby. It was Septbember 2009. I had a name picked for her/him and was really excited to be sharing this experience with my fiance, though the ms was unbearable. At 15 wks I started feeling the nudges and bumps that was my baby. At 16 wks I felt nothing and a day later huge clots and blood started to pass. I couldnt bring myself to look for my baby in the mess. But I will never forget her. She was my first, and my most devastating.

January of 2011, I o'd and didnt get AF.. I waited and got the blood work but the midwife I was seeing said there was no way I was pregnant. I insisted on an ultrasound and found a blighted ovum. My baby never even got to start growing. Not as hard as the first but still hard.

Now I see all those around me having babies and I try to stay patient as I wait for my turn. Its hard not to feel like a failure when everyone else can do something that is so naturally right and you can't. I will try a few more times, and then we will stop. Atleast for a few years. Sometimes the negatives are worse than the loss.
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